Wednesday, June 28, 2006

i should be working - Feb 22/06

lately i've been overcome with this irresistible urge to kill someone.

note: my desire to maim and destroy is not some random compulsion brought on by a psychological imbalance directed at some innocent victim.
far from it in fact.

my desire to kill is a very sane and rational response directed towards a very specific person. a person who shall remain nameless, although anyone who reads this and knows me can probably guess.

murder. the ultimate closure.


this is an unfortunate feeling.

having just come back from retreat, (and because i am not completely morally corrupt) i know i should not kill people. lucky for this person Jesus specifically says not to kill people... okay, moses said it but it was from God and God and Jesus are tight so it's pretty much the same right?

maybe i could just hate them.

hating's good.

" if anyone says 'I love God' but hates his brother, he is a liar".
seronica is not a liar.

life would be so much easier if I didn't have to be Christ like.

easier, but full of spite and pain.
not so easy really, just sad.
sad and lonely. and spiteful.


so what can i do?

read my bible and pray. and burn all their stuff.

fire. the other ultimate closure
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